Retrospection

Life is a travellouge.

In these last 4 years of pre/post marriage, pre/post separation & still awaiting for the decree of divorce life has changed a lot. 

I have a typical way of retrospecting/ remembering good/bad things of life when I fall ill.

There are many take aways from this marriage, but retrospecting & feeling fresh after illness is something which is always my own. 

This tym, in COVID-19 crisis, when I am looking for my soulmate/life partner, many of the good/bad things reminded me of my problems as well as the effects of someone else's problem.

Well, this ended with talking to my one month older cousin who has his cute 6 month old baby boy,  reyansh.

The name which self & my ex wife/egotist woman has thought of for our son. The point is my cute niece was born on would be wedding anniversary. 

It reminded me of the worst relationship of my life which I wanted to be the best. 

The times spent together in patna, surat, mumbai, krabi, Phuket, namaste India Hotel, The Ship from Phuket to Krabi, Bagkok Aiport & the city,

Also the time spent together during journey from Surat to mumbai which inadvertently went upto talegaon/Mumbai-pune expressway & so so...

These three days again reminded me of the time spent together although following social Distancing in Patna Civil & High court as well as Baranwal Bhavan, Kadamkuan.

During retrospecting, I found that I have lost not only wealth but also the typical self of mine (specific positive attitude in times of negativity) to her. Most of the marriages end & men typically lose money & time and women get more and more money at cost of time, but this is the most unusual stuff which a man can loose.

My basic characteristic, my basic instinct has just lost in these 1.5-2 years post her legal tantrum of getting my family member arrested & shaming their names.

Me or my siblings will never forgive her for using these awkward legal tantrums, however I can't let her gain my good qualities & lost my bad ones just like that.

Thanks the illness, u taught me what I was into these 1.5-2 years. M sure enough to bounce back with more vigour, energy and the best of me before decree of divorce. 

God, thanks for making me remember this, M also sure that losing my father's money was first step & this was last stroke in letting me know my problems & how to resolve them.

Thanks my intuition.

Thank god, I know it's for my betterment.

I also know that this was for the life's greatest teaching & only the best is waiting for me for my future marital life & my family. Surely, this will lead to advancement of my professional life as well.

Retrospecting is always good.